January 29, 1976
Today was the big day. It started out not so good because Elder Jones missed his train. He had to go with me to Bremen and then up to Cuxhaven Berlin
The train ride was really neat. Elder Jones and I were together all the way until Bremen Berlin we came out at Potsdam Potsdam East Germany Mission
I got in at 4:30. The other Elders were here waiting. They look like a great District. The D.L. is Elder Carpenter, his companion Elder Cline, and my companion, Elder Johnson. It’s going to be great.
Jan 30, 1976
Today was preparation day. We went and bought our stuff Wilhelmshaven Berlin
My companion is Elder Paul Roger Johnson from Salt Lake City Mission time. But I think we can work things out pretty good. He corrects me and humbles me a little which is good but he is going to have to learn where the responsibility lies. I ask for the Lord’s help in this matter. I knew the Lord will bless us if we stay humble and work together. Elder Johnson’s German is not very good for having had 6 years of German. His discussions are terrible. I hope I can help him. He is a good Elder and I am glad to be working with him.
I feel good about my new assignment. It is a big change for me, and I’m coming into a tough situation but I know the Lord will bless me if I stay humble and sincerely ask for his help. This is going to be a great experience for me. I am the youngest Senior in the Mission
January 31, 1976
The last day of January. I can’t believe another month has slipped by. I realize not good enough how fast the time is flying by. We didn’t have too good of a day today. Elder Johnson was on but we didn’t have our ducks in a row. We talked to a few people but there wasn’t much going on. We didn’t get much accomplished. We’ll get going better and get things worked out.
We went by the church today. It’s a small little church with no steeple or anything. I really like it. I think I will be a fine place to bring investigators and eventual members to.
We had one discussion tonight. It was with guy and his wife and a younger “hippie” looking couple. It was supposed to be an F.A. with popcorn and games and everything but with no kids I just felt like it would be better if we just showed them the film “Meet the Mormons.” Maybe that was wrong but I don’t think games and popcorn would have helped any when they were already interested in the Church. It’s one of those decisions I will be making from here on. There is a lot of responsibility upon me now, but I feel good about it. I can feel the blessings of the Lord upon us.
Tomorrow is fast Sunday. It should be really great. I’m excited to meet this branch and start a good work here.
February 1, 1976
Today was a great day. I got up in good time and we were ready to go and get gone in good time. Priesthood was 7 men, 4 of them being us. We really need to get some Priesthood holders in this Gemeinde. Sunday School was pretty good but there are still only about 25 people there. They are pretty strong people – it’s just small. Because it was Fast Sunday we had Sacrament meeting right after Sunday School. I gave the opening prayer. It was really a great meeting. I bore my testimony as did the other Missionaries. We are more than half of the Priesthood.
Afterwards we had a District Meeting. It was at the other Brethrens House. Elder Carpenter is the District Leader. He is a find Elder but he is really shy. Our meeting went good but it took us a long time. We had to listen to all the B.S. of Everyone. Na, ja, it wasn’t a very fired up meeting. We’ll have to work on getting better meetings.
We came home and had a good companion inventory. The Spirit was really there. Elder Johnson is a good Elder. We talked over a lot of things – mainly the Senior/Junior roles. He has a little trouble in this area understanding it all. It will come, and tonight was a start.
We had a fireside tonight at Langers. There is two Langers. Burt Langer and Karl-Werner. Tall and Short – they call them. They are really nice people. There are a lot of nice people in our Gemeinde.
It was a real long ride up on bicycles. On the way back I had a good talk with Elder Carpenter. He is a real good Elder.
February 5, 1976
I have been several days without writing. That’s bad. There are so many things that have happened. Yesterday we had the youngend come over for lunch. We had Michael and Rolf over for Hawaiian hot dogs. They are really mixed up sometimes. Wow I can’t believe their attitude about a lot of things. I wrestled a little with Michael and I really don’t know if that was right or not. The Prophet Joseph did it all the time but I just feel that maybe Michael took it wrong or something. We’ll have to work on these two jungs and see if we can’t help them.
February 5, 1976
I also met John through a little experience with his car. He is American. A real great guy. He has been taught some about the Church already and he is now in the process of making his mind up. He is the type of guy that doesn’t have a lot of confidence in himself. He is teaching English here until June and is really a good guy but he lacks a few qualities. I know he will make a good member of the Church though if we can help him get that far. The time is now because the longer we delay the harder it will be. John is also taking out another contact of ours by the name of Kim. She is a young girl but was in America
Well, I’ve been here a week now. I really can’t believe it’s been a week already. It’s been a hard week. I am finally getting to understand my companion a little better. It has been a struggle. I have really had to work this time. Elder Paul Roger Johnson is a great Elder. It has taken me a week to get to know him but I am really starting to appreciate him. He is different than most. He is a little older than me but dass spielt keine wolle. We are starting to get along pretty good now. At first it was the same thing I gave Elder McCowin when he came. Your second Senior, especially when he comes to you, is always hard to accept. I understand that too and I realize what Elder Johnson is going through. I just have to win his trust and confidence. That’s up to me to do. We are really doing well now and I think it will get better from here. It’s a great experience. Humbling and hard but when all is said and done a great experience.
We rode about 40-50 kilometers today. It was a long ride. We went to Voslapp, ganz oben, on the map. Had some good talks with some members. Also did a little tracting. It is looking good. I think this is a great area. (My fanny sure is sore though!)
We traveled to Oldenburg Oldenburg region, including Bremen came today to Oldenburg Oldenburg University
I met so many Elders today that I haven’t seen for a long time and a lot of new faces. It was really a great reunion. Elders like Croft, Mooney, Jones, Breitenbeker, Brunner, Wright and especially Blackham were all great to see again. Elder Blackham and I are such good buddies. I really can’t believe how great of an Elder he is. He has just been made Assistant and is really doing a great job. I will really be looking forward to some long associations with him. He is really a great man.
The meeting was really great. John and Kim were there. They drove down and really enjoyed the meeting. John was really impressed but Kim had a few more drawbacks. It was a great experience.
Today Elder Johnson and I had a good companion interview. He is a good Elder and our companion relationship is getting better. He’s learning and I’m learning and it is really an experience. The Spirit was really with us. Also tonight I told him some feelings I have been having about John. I felt impressed that if we were going to do our job and get him into the church he is going to have to come now. I feel that the Lord would have us promise him that if he joins the church he will have the things that he wants most in life. I really feel that this is where he can grow. He will gain his self confidence and become a strong member of the Kingdom.
I can feel it and I know the time is right. I pray that the Lord will bless us in this effort. I know he will, and he’ll make these things happen.
February 9, 1976
This is what you call an undated entry. Sometime between the 5th and the 9th a lot of feelings have come to me and I just want to write them today.
First a few happenings. Friday was preparation day. I got a lot of work done. We went in the morning and showered before our day. That was quite an experience. Since we don’t have a shower we have to go to a health spa kind of place. The people there are specialists – they wear white clothes and are really high class trained people. It’s a Spa with Sauna and Therapy pool – the whole works. We just use the shower. It costs 3 DM each every time and it’s kind of a bite. The worst thing is that it’s open where we shower and sometimes cleaning or these health ladies will walk through. It’s not very private. We’ll have to see if we can get something worked out. That’s not a very good deal.
Friday night we went to a deal called “Let’s Meet and Talk.” It’s an organization that John is in charge of where townspeople come together and talk English. It is a lot of fun. I had a table that I was in charge of so to speak because I was a native speaker. I sat in between 2 girls. They were both really shy but I liked to talk to both of them. I tried to tell them about the church but I didn’t get that good of a chance. I had really funny feelings about the one on my left. She could speak English pretty good and she reminded me a lot of Mitzie. She looked a little like her but her skin was really pretty like Mitzie’s and when I would talk to the other people she was still right by my side and I felt like back in the old days in all our meetings with Mitzie by me. It was really weird. I’m going to ask that girl if she wants to hear more about the church.
We had a special experience Saturday night. We visited a P/M family named Follberts. The wife is a member. We had the best evening talking to them that you could have. We were there 4 hours. He was negative. Not now though. It was neat!
February 9, 1976
ZONE CONFERENCE OLDENBURG
Today was history for our Mission Berlin Mission because of Berlin Berlin Mission
The Conference itself was really fantastic. The President talked about a lot of good things. First of all he talked about what Elder Franklin D. Richard’s told the Missionaries in Berlin
The President then went on and talked about goals and how we can reach them and more important making the righteous desires of our hearts drive us on. Love – that was a key word. How we get right down and love these people. We need to ask ourselves how much do I love them. What am I willing to do for them? Have I paid the price? He used words such as DISCIPLINE, PATIENCE, CONCENTRATION, FAITH, and SENSITIVITY. The key is to love these people and do things that show this love and incorporate these virtues into our lives to make it happen. The President then talked about Prayer. He talked a lot about the January Issue of the Ensign. It’s a special issue on prayer and it is really great. I have it and have read it and I know what he is talking about. He then hooks these two areas up with the word DESIRE. It’s so true. The desires of our hearts. What are the desires of our hearts? President Schwendiman talks about this a lot. What do we really want? Are we willing to pay the price for it? Does our soul hunger after righteousness the Enoch, I mean Enos’ did when he went hunting? We need to pray properly. Through the Spirit pouring out our soul to the Lord. We need to love our contacts and companions and selves and leaders, etc. We need to change ourselves to be tools in our hands. These are great ideas. They are hard to do all at once but if we can work on these things – the Lord will bless us – and we will see success. It was a great Sessions this morning.
There were some other great classes. Elders Olsen, Matthews and Blackham taught the other classes. I was especially touched by Elder Blackham today. It was so good to see him again. To see him in action. He is a great Elder and I had forgotten a few things about him. His style and teaching method. He taught me a lot of things. We had a pretty good talk today. I wanted to see him after but he was busy and I didn’t get the chance. In his class, which was taught so beautifully, he gave us all a challenge to get 55 hours every week in March. That’s for every Missionary. Then he bore his testimony and said he knew the Lord would bless us if we lived up to our end. Then he said “I know that to be true and Elder Rogers know that also” in front of everyone. Yes, I know it to be true because of the very special experience with Sister Prinz. Elder Udell Blackham and I are very close. He is a lifelong friend. It’s a great experience. This Conference was a wonderful experience.
February 10, 1976
Today was Tuesday, Elder Johnson was on. It was a hard day. We had about five things fall out and turn up chicken so it was a bad start. We ended up doing several good hours of door-to-door. After lunch we visited John. I really have mixed feelings about him. He is really mixed up. He needs the church. He just can’t realize what it could mean to him.
I had been doing a lot of thinking and praying and I realized what it meant to be a servant of the Lord – a little better anyway. Because I finally came to the conclusion to promise John a few things through the power of the Priesthood if he would gain a testimony of the church. Looking on it that’s what we did. We promised him self confidence and a directory for life, but that really isn’t anything. That’s almost understood you could say. He needs more than that maybe. I need to exercise my Faith and find out how we can help him – from the Lord. I’ll be working on this.
Tonight at Ping Pong I met a new face. Her name is Kathy Woodward. She is a Mormon from California
February 11, 1976
Today we were austausched. I worked with Elder Cline. We stayed up until 1:00 talking about girl friends and etc. That’s no good. So of course we were late getting up and our whole morning was fouled up. He made us pancakes. They were really good.
We finally got out on the work about 11:00. The rest of the day went pretty good, except for the hour we blew after lunch making a card for Sister Huddles. After an hour of tracting we went to Huddle’s. She is German and he is American. They have lived for the last 13 years or so in Maryland
After dinner I got the subject on to religion. We gave them a C 1-3 which is something the other Elders have never been able to do. I guess I was pretty forceful. They were hard to teach but the Spirit was there and we had a good Discussion. I felt really good about it. They are a nice family and I hope they can come along.
It was a good day working with Elder Cline.
February 12, 1976
Today I was with Elder Carpenter in my gegend. We had a pretty lousy day. We did get some good business contacting done in the morning. The afternoon was spent with Huwalts and a few other members and “lookups” up in F. groden. We also visited Kim. She is a little weird. I don’t know what to think about her. She is not really working that hard in these areas of the church and sometimes I think she only likes the Missionaries because they speak English. I am going to have to really do some thinking and praying to get her coming along.
It wasn’t a very good day. Tonight we had Harold come to G.F. but that was the only good thing we had all day. As missionaries we need to really buckle down and get our “Ducks in a Row.”
February 13, 1976
We had a great day. We left late and didn’t get a whole lot done but it was good. The other Elders came over to eat with us. Elder Johnson mixed up a big batch of Spaghetti. We about died, there was so much. It was a lot.
Tonight, though we had a great Discussion. It was really fantastic. Its 2 guys. A Herr Karbisch and Herr Pychella. They were really good. I was really impressed. Things could be good.
Tonight also Elder Johnson told me his conversion story. It was good.
February 14, 1976
What a beautiful day. We had a great discussion last night. I am still really impressed about the good attitudes Herr Karbisch and Herr Pychella showed. I loved to teach sincere people. I have great desires and hopes for these two. I hope my time here is sufficiently strong. I mean long enough that I can work with people like this. The whole day started good because of that discussion last night.
I got up early this morning and got some great studying done. It felt so good. I got some good old BAC deodorant and it reminds me of Spandau when things were so great. I just feel great. This feeling of getting up and studying hard and preparing just makes my whole day go right. I felt really good.
We were supposed to meet Harold at 10:00. He was supposed to come over but he never did. At 11:00 I decided to go find out the story as we left to see him. I was quite worried because he has told us his parents were negative, so we were very cautious. Well I knew the Spirit was there because we found his mother outside of the Wohnung on her way to the trash. We were able to have a great talk with her. I don’t know if that would have happened had we knocked on the door. It was so good. We have a good relationship now with her at least. I gave Harold a note – by way of his mother. Apparently he never got it, so we went back to him. We had to meet with him. Finally we talked to him and he came over and we were able to have a good discussion. He even said the prayer after a little persuasion. It was great. He’ll be coming to church tomorrow. I feel good about him.
Last night we taught those two guys and now Harold. I really feel some good things could be around the corner for us.
We visited the Kurt Langer family for Pizza last night. It was in the capacity of Home Teachers. They are really nice. We made Pizza and had a great evening.
Today was a great day. It is a special day for me because it was one year ago today that I received my call to the Germany Hamburg Mission. What a special Valentine’s Day! I guess Valentine’s will always have this special meaning. I can’t believe how much I’ve learned and developed in one year. This has been a very productive year and I realize that it is the basis for my whole life. I love this Church and the many wonderful opportunities the Lord has given us through his Church. I love the Lord and feel his presence in so many of my doings, especially in this Missionary work. It is a great feeling. I just can’t express my feelings when I think of all the opportunities that lie ahead of me. I am young and the world is lying there before me willing and ready to be conquered. On this special day I give the Lord thanks and praise him for giving me so much. I must be the most blessed person on earth. I pray to be worthy to stand and serve at God’s right hand.
February 15, 1976
Today started off in a very special way. For the first time in over seven months I talked to Mitzie. I called her. It was early this morning but still Valentine’s Day for her. It’s hard to write my feelings down. It was very special, very tender, and very easy. We only had 5 minutes but it was enough time. We both knew there wasn’t anything important to talk about, it was good enough just to talk and to hear each other’s voices. Then when we had to go to tell each other that we loved each other. That was all. It was so short, and yet not short at all. It was hard to hang up but then very easy because I felt her Spirit and felt a soothing warm feeling come over me. I really love her. She nor I probably really realize how much. She represents at least all I ever want in life. I don’t know how things are going to work out, at this point I can’t know and it’s not important that I do. What is important is the feeling we both share about love, about life, and especially about the eternal concepts of marriage and God’s plan for us. When it comes time for me to marry that decision will be worked out by me and the Lord and it could be Mitzie, but if it’s not she will always hold a very big place in my heart, not only for the many wonderful times we have had together but also because it was through my relationship with her I started to develop these eternal feelings. For that reason I will always love Mitzie. She will always hold a special place in my heart. Right now I can see things developing further and maybe someday she will own my heart, but those things come later. It is also time that these feelings I have about her and eternal marriage are very embryonic. I know that when I get off my Mission
The whole rest of the day was really a living experience. In Priesthood Meeting the District Presidency was there for Gemeinde Konferenz. They talked especially about handling the Ordinances of the Gospel. It was really a good review for us. I was especially touched by something he read by Neal A. Maxwell that instructed us as Fathers to give blessings to our children. To bless them often and use the power of the Priesthood in our own homes. He said that once in awhile on special blessings and etc. or just when you want these blessings should be written down. He said nothing ties a stronger bond between father and child than that. I agree. I have often already thought about this. The Prophets blessed their children and as a Father I will have the same privilege in my own home. What a wonderful opportunity. This Church is so neat. I am so thankful for my many wonderful blessings. It was indeed a special Priesthood for me.
The Konferenz was good. We had some great speakers. After talking about how to do the Sacrament right in Priesthood Meeting I was called to bless it in Sunday School. In our branch the one person blesses both water and bread. It’s the first time I have done it here. I was scared, the District Presidency and all. I said a little prayer and just relaxed. When the time came I did everything perfect for the bread. I felt good. Maybe a little too good or a little not so dependent on the Lord’s help because in the water I made a little mistake at the end and had to repeat myself. It was a good experience for me. It reminded me of the Nephites. As soon as they didn’t depend on the Lord and got cocky he was no longer with them. Mine was just a little mistake and all and all I felt good about the whole ordinance but the ideas was there. It was a good lesson.
In the afternoon we went over and had a talk with John. He was really irritated at us because we tried to teach him a discussion. He is really being worked upon by the Devil. I wish he could understand some of these things. We threw the discussion aside and just talked. He has some very basic problems that are holding him up right now. The main one is he won’t humble himself to realize his mistakes and where he is going. He also has a hard time realizing how we feel about the family. I wish somehow I could give him my feelings for just five minutes. It’s so hard for him. It was a good talk. I realize he is a lot farther away than I had thought. We are really going to have to use our faith and help him come. I know he can do it but it’s going to have to come through a lot of effort on his part.
Harold and my Air Force friend didn’t show up to Church but they’ll come also. It was neat tonight. After several negative CB’s we finally went to Wolters and were able to teach a discussion. It was great. They started indifferent but ended up interested. I have a testimony of the Spirit. It was a great Discussion and they invited us back Wednesday. It was a great ending for a beautiful day.
February 16, 1976
We had a pretty good day. It started lousy. We had a terrible District Meeting. We can’t get together on anything. We also helped Sister Hoffman with her Kohl. She is crazy. Really. She has to take four purses into the basement with her because she’s afraid someone will steal it. Senile. John came over today. He really needs us. He just wanted to talk. He is a real good guy and I know he will come if we can get him to really sit down and think, ponder and pray. We helped him write a letter. An application form. We only got a little time in the Gegend. We did visit our “Hippie” friends. Frau Gabbi Boneck and also the ones upstairs. A good day.
February 17, 1976
Last night I read the Blicks that we got yesterday. We got 4 of them all at once. They were really good. I wish we could get them like we used to – one every week but they come 4 a month now. Anyway I was really impressed by an article by Elder Blackham and also two articles by Truman Madsen. He is so good. I just love to read his article. Last night as I read I was touched by the Spirit several times. I really was touched. Water came to my eyes and I really felt inspired. I want to be a good writer and a good speaker in my own right. I set that as a goal a long time ago and if I can influence people righteously as Elder then what a star to reach for.
We had a pretty good day. We went to Sister Kurs this morning to break up some crates she had for firewood. We went at 11:00 (only an hour late) and didn’t leave until 3:00. That blew most of the day. This afternoon we went and did some good work in the Gegend. Both of our termines fell out but we taught a discussion anyway and had a good evening there. I think we have some great people thee to be worked with. We met a guy tonight who is Portuguese. We thought he was Turkish or Yugoslavian at first but no he’s Portuguese. I had good feelings about it. We are going to show a film there Saturday. I have good ideas and feelings about this one.
This morning when I woke up I was dizzy. I don’t know what it was but I was really out of it. I think it was my sinuses being clogged. I had sort of a rough morning so I said a “give me some help” at noon and had a little idea or revelation. I was thinking about this idea of setting a goal for Baptism before I leave here and I just really felt good about it. I am going to have to work and prepare and fast and pray but I feel good about that goal – and I’ll be keeping it in mind and maybe soon be setting it!
We had a great day. This morning we visited Sister Hoffman and Sister Heintz two of our members that can’t get around. We bought a few things for Sister Hoffman (bread, milk, hot water bottle, cane). Just did all the errands we could. We had a good talk with Sister Heintz. She is a real nice old lady. She’s had a real hard life though. Really hard.
In the afternoon it was off to Kim’s for Kathy’s farewell party. I only met her once but it was kind of hard to see her go. Mainly because of what she represented. Somehow we found ourselves on the couch talking. Nothing bit I really couldn’t like her for more than just a friend. She is not my type and I’m not worked about things like that anyway – and with that attitude it was easy to have a good talk. Apparently her parents were divorced when she was small and she has traded off through the years living with them. Now I can understand why she is like she is. Her Mormon affiliation doesn’t mean that much to her I guess because she can’t see or she has never been able to see a lot of things. We had a good talk, there were some feelings there that were really hard to interpret but one thing I know and that is I am not going to have much trouble fitting into the dating scene. Kathy was attracted to me and she knew she was older, I was a Missionary, she was leaving, etc., etc. but she didn’t fool me – she couldn’t hide it. It was a pretty neat experience really because she needs the church and she has never really seen the Missionaries. I’d like to see her after I’m married. I could never marry her type but I’d love to help her. She is a beautiful girl, just a little different circumstances. Na, ja, so geht das Leben.
We met Sister Haiduck and her son Stephen after that. Possibilities there. We also had a few discussions with Herr Wolters and an Oma from upstairs. She was really touched. I’ll have to check into her situation a little. A real special lady, it looks like.
February 19, 1976
We had a pretty good day today. We taught Harold a discussion here at the Wohnung and then took him to GFV (MIA) with us. It was not bad but not real good either.
We sat down and had a little talk this evening about a few things. I have been having a little trouble lately taking all the criticism I get from Elder Johnson. I know the adversary is working hard on me but I just wanted to mention it anyway. Kind of make him aware. Well we talked about it but of course he hadn’t realized anything. It was a good little talk but afterwards I felt a little empty. Empty because I wonder if he is true to himself. This is hard to write because I know I’m no angel and have probably more problems than him – but I realize that – I recognize that and strive to work for bettering myself. But usually I can’t feel even the slightest ticht that he feels he’s wrong or needs to try harder. He’s very inconsistent depending on what the situation needs. He can’t see that very good either! Well enough of that. I just wrote that because I have to be honest with myself about my feelings. That means that I am going to have to try even harder – put everything I’ve got into loving him better. He is a great Elder and has a very important calling to do and I need to especially work on myself and bend over backwards for him. I need to show him by example. I need to be a better Senior companion and work harder and love everyone better and do my job better. I ask the Lord for his help in these areas because I realize how important it is to have a good companion relationship. I feel we do get along real well and we do work together fine and I’m thankful to be able to work with him. But I also feel there is a lot of room for improvement and growth and so I ask the Lord to bless me to fill these qualifications.
February 20, 1975
Another preparation day. It went well. This evening w went to the gegend and just dropped in on the people we had last week. Our investigators. It went well. We had a good talk with Herr Karlisch. He’s great. I really have good feelings about him. Tonight was also “Let’s Meet and Talk.” I had a good discussion with 3 girls but I didn’t get to talk to that one. Oh, well, seeing how I’m so worried about – but I would like to talk to her about the church. I did find one good guy. He was sitting at our table. Afterwards I saw him out in back and talked to him. He had interest and we made any appointment.
February 21, 1976
A good Saturday. It started out pretty rough with a pretty rough G.Q. session in the morning. We had a good afternoon with 3 discussions. We taught Captain Lang, the guy I found last night. He’s good. Then we went to our Portuguese family. I called Elder McCowin Wednesday night and he sent me 4 Books of Mormon and some tracts in Portuguese. They are black Catholic though so I don’t know. We’ll see. It was a good week this week. 52 hours and 8 discussions taught. The most Elder Johnson has ever had. 14 investigators also. A great week. Now just to keep it up and bring these people along.
February 22, 1976
We didn’t get much done today but it was a good day. I had to bless the Sacrament again this morning. It’s a humbling experience every time I bless it. I really feel the Spirit. I am learning so many things. This afternoon I made an Investigator list and tried to get things straightened up a little. We didn’t get much done but I felt better. Harold was in church tonight. He heard Brother Langer talk about tithing and the Word of Wisdom and he was a little upset. I don’t know about Harold but I really want to help him. I was really surprised but Kim was to church tonight. I don’t know what to think about her. She is so mixed up and set in her ways but I wish she could see the importance of the church. I told her sincerely that I was glad she came. She couldn’t believe me partly because she has heard so much just plain BS and flattery and because she doesn’t know me very well. I’d like to help her out and I’m hoping to get the chance.
This last week Elder Johnson got on my nerves a few times. Thursday night I told him about it and we had a good little talk, through that and a lot of sincere prayers I learned a lot of things. I really understand him now. Just like I came to understand Elder Jones. It’s really hard at first but now I truly can predict and understand him. All these little habits and quirks about people that rub – if you can see over them at the person you realize the true situation. It’s been a tough road and I know the Devil has been working on me to take these peculiarisms that we all have and make me get upset at them. But now I can see over that and I realize the true person.
Elder Johnson is a great Elder and I am really happy to be working with him. He, like the rest of us, has a lot of weaknesses but if you realize it, it’s easy to overlook. It’s just like my struggle with Marilyn Bentley in High School. She was always doing things that would get my goat but after a while I could see through her and understand her better than she could her own self. I was just blessed to be able to and I can feel that now. I want to be an understanding person, that’s one of my goals. I can really understand my companion now and I feel good about it. I thank the Lord for the wonderful opportunities I have to grow and develop and be the man that he would have me be. I pray for humility, love and understanding in my associations with men.
February 23, 1976
We had a pretty good day. We had a rough afternoon because I guess we got up earlier but after we got out again it was good. Tonight we had a good or I should say bad discussion with Herr Wollert. Wow a real unbeliever! I hope him well in the next life. I just wish we could help him better. Na, ja, one of those days.
I got some good letters from home. My family wrote. Also I got a great Blab and Mitzie wrote a special letter. She commented on my phone call – a good letter. She is really cool.
February 24, 1976
I was on today. It was a pretty tough day for Elder Johnson. He really has a hard time sometimes getting on the work. I know why 5oo. It’s really discouraging sometimes. I remember how discouraged I used to get when I was learning there in Spandau . You just have to learn how to be a Missionary. It takes time. I know the Lord blesses us for our efforts with understanding but you also have to put in a lot of effort on your own to overcome the hard times. It’s tough to get doors slammed and all but after a little time in the field you learn to take it with a smile and move on. But it has to be learned.
Well today Elder Johnson was really having discouragement feelings. In fact we had to come here today to meet Harold (which fell out) and we just stayed and talked for an hour and a half. I guess I gave him just a good pep talk. He is really a good Elder but he has problems concentrating on the work sometimes. His stupid Fiance doesn’t realize that and try to help him. Instead he gets 3 or 4 mushy letters a week from her and that doesn’t help at all. We just had a good talk. He is learning a lot of good things I hope. I hope I’m teaching him good. I feel good and I thank the Lord for the opportunity I have. I want to help him every way I can.
February 25, 1976
It was a good day today. We had several good discussions. I was really impressed by a Frau Hamann. She has had the Missionaries before and is really great. I don’t know what is wrong but she somehow couldn’t gain a testimony through the years. I think we can help her. We also had a good member-missionary discussion with Schwester Haiduck. She is real nice but pretty weak. I would love to strengthen her and also help her son Steven. He’s 12 and has never been baptized. I think we have our work cut out for us. I would do anything to help them. They’re good and I’m going to give it my best.
Elder Carpenter is going tomorrow. I have only known him one month but I have really come to love and appreciate him. It will be bad to see him leave. He is my cousin or uncle. His Grandfather and my Great Grandfather John Bushman are brothers. Alonzo Bushman – Lenore? Carpenter – Jay Carpenter to John Bushman. We would be third cousins I guess. He’s a great guy. I really like him.
February 26, 1976
Ten months ago I walked into the Salt Lake Mission Home. That was a tough day. As I remember now it was really tough and if I knew how bad that first week would have been, I wonder. But now! I just can’t believe the things that have happened to me the wonderful experiences that I have had and how much the Lord has blessed me. The first week was really great as the Missionary experience but I found it hard to leave my family and all. The Lord knew that. He gives us tough things so we can grow. I have grown an awful lot. I have finally realized the why of so many things. You just have to learn how to be a Missionary and I thank the Lord every night that he has called me here and given me this chance to learn and grow. At the end of ten fast and very beautiful months I pray to be able to continue to grow and learn.
February 27, 1976
It was preparation day today. They always seem to go so fast I can’t believe it. We never get the things done we want to. I don’t know what we do or where the time goes. Oh, well, es geht.
After we got out in the gegend it was pretty tough. I have a lot of feelings and I really can’t express them but I guess I better try. Elder Johnson has had a hard mission so far. He didn’t get along with his first companion very well and I’ll have to admit it has really been a struggle for me at times. Today in the gegend was a good example. He didn’t want to go to work so we sort of wandered around for awhile. But we finally got going and he felt better. Anyway the point is even though once in a while it’s hard, I feel so good about the progress he and I are both making. I understand him. He doesn’t realize how much but I’ve been through the same stages I guess. We all do, you just have to learn to be a Missionary. Consequently I have really been hitting him with the old positive attitude and love of the game that I feel. I really love him and I feel so good about our situation. We are really doing well. I feel deep down that he is really learning how a good companionship should develop and I just feel so blessed. I want him to be the best Junior here. I hope he can grasp some of these things I was taught and be the Missionary he can be. The hardest thing in the Mission field is companion politics. I have had my hard times too but in this area I feel good and especially now with my first junior I just feel the importance of my calling. I thank the Lord that I can work with Elder Johnson. We are really growing and working together good and I just feel so good. It’s a great feeling.
Yesterday my new District Leader arrived from Braunswig. His name is Randall Julander from Richfield , Utah
February 28, 1976
Well another month has slipped by. Today being the last report day for February I really can’t believe it. Time is flying and at times it seems as if I’m sitting. I really need to push. I have several goals to meet by my Birthday and also my hump day.
We had a good day today. We visited Sister Heintz this morning and went looking for an apartment this afternoon. We might be moving here pretty quick. I don’t really want to but it looks like it.
At lunch we had Kim over. After cheese sandwiches and French fries we played her “Profile of a Prophet.” She is really great but she can’t understand our feelings. I bore her my testimony and really let her know how I felt. I can’t believe the feelings you get when you pour your heart out to someone and they don’t grasp it. I hope she can come along now and work farther. She is really a nice girl.
We had a discussion with Herr Fey out at his “Cabin” garten house out on the beach, or deich (dike) I should say. He’s a talker but it went well. We worked hard today. I really felt good about the day, the week and especially the month. It was great. Probably one of the best. I’m glad too because it was my first as Senior. Things are really great for me!
February 29, 1976 (Leap Day) – Sunday
It was a very good day. We didn’t take much time for ourselves but it was a good day. We really worked hard. We are getting pretty diligent. In Sunday School class I went with Elder Johnson, Ralph and Sister Langer. They have a good little class. It was pretty neat. Ralph is 17 and really a fine young man. I really think the world of him. He is going to make a great Missionary. I also blessed the Sacrament in Church. That’s the 3rd week in a row. The last 2 Sunday Schools
March 1, 1976 – Monday
Today being the first day of March and the first day of our special Mission goal of everyone getting 55 hours every week, I decided to fast for help in these and other areas. The Lord has promised us success in many ways if we live up to our end of the covenants we make with him. The Assistants have given us a goal of 55 hours every week and I believe we will really be blesses if we live it. I know also that the Lord has promised us 5 times as many baptisms as last year and he will be pouring out his Spirit to make it happen. Because of the things I feel March is going to be a very important and beautiful month. Today I fasted and of course my companion also for help in realizing and meeting these challenges and goals. I set 3 goals for myself this month. Number one is my discussions. I still am real weak in all of them especially H and J. I am going to learn these last 2 word perfect and polish the others this month and prove the Statement “if you know the discussions you’ll baptize people.” That’s my first goal. Then I am setting a goal to let virtue garnish my thoughts unceasingly. I’m really doing well here but I feel there is still room to improve. And finally my last and most important goal is to have at least a baptism date set by the end of March, and baptize someone before I hump. I know the time as right and the Lord will guide and bless us to the accomplishing of these goals. He has promised in that. Now it’s up to us to believe that.
March 2, 1976
We are really working together well. We had a real good day today although I felt we didn’t work that hard. I really can’t decide sometimes about the working idea. Sometimes you don’t feel right unless you’re tracting or doing ZK’s in the gegend but then on the other hand visiting people, members, the sick, talking to people on the street seems a lot more productive at times, although it’s easier and you don’t speak to as many. We rode around a lot today. Doing a little of both. Elder Johnson has a hard time sometimes doing the Gegend work.
Tonight we visited the Karl-Werner Langer family in Himmelbirch. He is Branch President but I feel still a very weak Mormon. We talked about the Miss/Mem program and gave them a sheet to write down their families on. Now we are supposed to work on them together. I hope they can do it now. They both were on Missions in East Germany
We got home late and my companion was upset. We didn’t have any time for his personal things, but after a good long talk about sacrifice he felt better. I felt really good to be able to help him out. He’s a good Elder.
March 3, 1976
Today we both really felt the Spirit of Missionary work. It was a good day on the doors because we both were testifying good of the Gospel instead of just looking up people or something. We had a real good experience. We talked to John and that was a real bad experience. He lost his temper when he dropped and broke a wine bottle. I’ve never seen anyone like him. He is about to break, and I guess then he might turn to us. It’s a bad situation now though. He really has a hard time. I’m praying for an answer.
We visited Folkerts tonight for a F.A. We made popcorn and showed EINS. It was great. We’re going back Monday. They are great. I really want to help them.
March 4, 1976
I want to take a few minutes this morning and write my experience last night, or I should say my dream. I really don’t know what to think of it – whether it was good or bad. Anyway I explain the dream itself and then my feelings about it afterward. I was caught up very deep in it and you can’t always figure out things or remember details but the basis can be easily explained. I dreamed I was on my mission somewhere down the road of time from here. The setting was a wohnung at first but it later turned out to be a house. Anyway the President called me. President Schwendimann and I had a good long talk and he finally started talking about my achievements. He kept on talking and finally he told me he was calling me to be his Assistant. I was overcome. I couldn’t speak. He said I was the man for the job and said because of my hard work, guts, and all he really wanted and needed me. Well I was really overcome. Shocked and bewitched I accepted and then he hung up. I was really humbled and as I walked into another room I saw my Mom with tears in my eyes and the phone in her hand. She was proud. As I saw her I was overcome and just collapsed. I was overtaken with humility and my mother’s proud look.
That was it. I couldn’t believe it. It was so real I just almost believed it until I sat up wide awake. It was a funny dream. I believe that the Lord can inspire us through dreams. I believe he can speak to us through dreams. As I think of this dream I realize a lot. I hope that it doesn’t mean that I have been aspiring to be an Assistant. Sure we have all thought about it but I certainly hope I am not aspiring to be one. I do hope that if the situation came I would be prepared to be an Assistant if called. But that’s two different things. Putting ourselves in a position to be called and lusting or aspiring after a call are very different. I think this dream told me a lot. First I need to push in all my efforts as a Missionary: language, discussions, etc. to be that Missionary I am capable of being. I feel good now but I can be a lot better. I want to be competent enough so that if the Lord ever did call me to such a position I would be able to do it. Second I realize that in all our efforts we need to learn humility. I was really humble in my dream. I guess that’s telling me to be humbler than I am. Another thing I learned was how much my Mom means to me. She was really proud of me and I wouldn’t want it any other way. I know she is proud of me and I want to always make her feel that way. Yes, I think the Lord was trying to tell me some things. To work harder and be humbler and be a better missionary. It was a good experience if I can grow and learn from it.
The rest of the day wasn’t too hot. We had to wash our clothes and that took time and money. We didn’t have a very well planned day. We had an appointment with Sister Metzke but she wasn’t there. I don’t know what the trouble was. It bothers me a little to see her not keep her word to us. The members here really need to learn a lot of things. They are all really weak. I wish there was something we could do, something more that would really light the fire for them. I want to help them all I can but it’s a tough road for these people here. The Lord will bless them if they want it though.
We wasted a lot of time today messing around with Elder Johnson’s bike. My bike had a flat which I fixed this evening but his was all messed up – we had to visit a bike shop, etc.
Tonight at C.F. I was really feeling a little down. Harold came after a few drinks of beer and was really a turkey. He tried to put the moves on Kim and was really being dumb. I asked him if he was praying and he said no it wasn’t important to him. We are going to really get on his case. He is really an unbelieving soul and needs our help bad. I wish he would accept it.
Tonight I also had a good talk with Ralph. He is a good kid. I really have a special verbenjung with him. We talked about Social Pressures and about how I could improve my German, etc., etc. It was good.
March 5, 1976
I had a very special day today. It was Friday, preparation day and we didn’t have that much to do as far as shopping and busy work. Instead we cleaned the fridge, washed the bathroom – blew the day that way. I made two tapes. It was a regular preparation day.
Before we left though I got down on my knees and prayed with all my heart for the discussion we had tonight. It was Harlisch and Pychalla, the two guys we have been teaching together. I really prayed with the Spirit and I could just pour out my heart for these 2 guys and also all the people we were teaching. It was a very Spiritual experience. I know the discussion would go good when I got off my knees.
Well we left and had to go to the Post first. Yesterday we met a lady on the door and she told us to come back at 5:00. I didn’t really realize it and we didn’t get there until 6:00. But she made us tea and we had a wonderful talk. She and her husband are really great and really competent people. We made an appointment for an F.A. They are so good. I am so excited I can’t believe it. I know we are blessed.
So then we went to our discussion. It was fantastic. We showed “Suche” and wrapped up the D discussion and then went through half of the E. What a beautiful experience. These two men are so sincere about it. They really want to know the truth and through the power of the Spirit we committed them to read and pray about it. I know they felt the Spirit and will do just that. I was so impressed I have never had anyone like this. They’re Golden. They will make fantastic members of the Church. I hope and pray with all my heart for these two. I know the Spirit was there. One time they asked me about money. I explained just a little about Tithing. It’s a hard part. They understand and felt great about it. I know the Spirit touched them. It was so good. Now I am (we are) going to continue to pour our hearts out to the Lord because I know it can happen. Wow, what a beautiful day.
March 6, 1976
This morning we helped Harold and his family move. That was quite an experience. All four of us put on our Levi’s and went on over. They only moved around the corner. I couldn’t believe the crap they had. It’s like moving a dump from one place to another. They are really poor but it was still a lot of junk. The Germans have a lot of funny ways sometimes. All the people in the house were impressed with the good “American” help that they had. The thing was though they all drank as they worked. They couldn’t figure out why we didn’t drink as we worked. It was really stupid. They had 2 or 3 guys (husbands of Harold’s sisters, I think) that helped us. They were drunk after an hour. It’s so stupid. If we hadn’t of been there I doubt they would have made it. As it was we were done in about 2-1/2 hours. Afterwards we were there talking about drinking. The two guys left couldn’t figure out why we didn’t. We said it made us healthier He said he was in better shape than any of us so Elder Julander my District Leader put me up to arm wrestle them. It was weird. One of them was 42 and the other about 25-6. I knew the Lord would bless me and as it was I was just plain actually stronger. I beat them both. It was quite a learning experience helping that family move. Now we are going to go back and see if we can teach the whole family and do our job.
After that we had a pretty rough day. We met one lady that is going to come to church but other than that it wasn’t too good.
Tonight though I had a very special experience. I heard a tape of a talk given by Hersall Pederson as he was teaching the last group of Mission Presidents and their wives. It was so fantastic. It opened my eyes to so many things. I was so touched. How to teach, how to use the Spirit. I have known it all but not practiced it but now I will. I was so impressed. Like an answer to prayer it came when I needed it. What a great experience.
March 7, 1976
Today was Sunday. It was really a mixed up day. We fasted and led our regular fast service testimony meeting right after Sunday School. It was a special meeting. The Spirit was there but I really wasn’t so elevated. I had a headache and really couldn’t get into it. I missed out. Afterwards we ate lunch with the other Brethren and had our usual District Meeting.
In the afternoon we came home because Elder Johnson’s bike was broke. We stayed here for a while and I studied the scriptures of Brother Pederson’s talk. He is so good. He really knows his scriptures. I really want to study and learn mine like him. It became quite clear to me also that I need to use the Scriptures more and more in my teaching. I need to teach using my sticks better.
This evening we made some good CB’s instead of going to the fireside. We visited Brother Pyrchalla for a minute and also Frau Ahlhan. We read 3 Nephi 17 for Frau Ahlhan. It was so neat. The Spirit was there. As I prepared to leave I asked the Lord to bless her and the home and as I did I was nearly overcome with the Spirit. It was a beautiful experience. I’m growing.
March 8, 1976
Today we austausched. I worked with Elder Julander from Richfield , Utah Mission
March 9, 1976
Today I was with Elder Cline. We had a great day together also. He is really a shy Missionary but a very good and very humble one. We worked real hard. We taught Harold today. Wow was that ever a tough discussion. He is so unbelieving. I have never met anyone like him before. I hope he can humble himself but right now it’s a tough road. I pray that the Lord will bless him but I know he has to do the first step himself.
Today was March 9. That is a special day for me because it was on March 9 that I took Mitzie out on our first day. I had taken her dragging Main once before but this time it was a real date. A dance, in fact a dance that Kevin E. and I put together so that I could ask her out. That was wow, let’s see that was three years ago. It’s been a long time I guess. She sent me a real nice letter today. I think of these engaged Elders and all and I’m just glad that we have such a special relationship as it is. It’s really great. The Lord has really blessed me. Things are great.
March 10, 1976
Well it was back to normal today as the Austausches for the month are over. Elder Johnson was on. That’s usually hard for me and it shouldn’t be but I can’t stand to waste time which is too often what we do. We visited Frau Hamenn today. She is really nice and really likes the Missionaries but I figured out why she didn’t gain a testimony last time she worked through this process. She really isn’t willing to follow the teaching after she receives the testimony and therefore hasn’t been able to receive it. I believe she can prepare herself though. Will keep working with her. The Lord wants her.
We also had an F.A. tonight with a Familie named Schopp. He is a real hard guy and she’s a little wild but they have a lovely family and I’d sure like to bring them into the Gospel. The F.A. went well. It was a good experience.
March 11, 1976
Well we worked hard today but I really felt funny. I guess part of the problem was my anxiety about a few things. It’s really tough being a Missionary. I called Elder Hudson last night finally and had a good talk with him. He must really be having a hard time. I wish I could work with him but I’m sure he has good companions and I’m sure the Lord has blessed him. When we as Missionaries think we have it hard as I guess I did today we are transgressing a law. Brother Southam used to tell us that if someone feels sorrow for himself then he isn’t accepting the atonement of Christ. If we realize that Christ suffered everything then when we feel bad for ourselves we are in essence saying, okay I’m going to suffer a little bit for myself because Christ wasn’t good enough or I at least don’t recognize it. It’s so true. If we look up to him in all our doings and try to understand and realize the Atonement of Christ then we are approaching what he want us to be.
I am fasting right now. Partly because I want the Lord to bless our discussion tomorrow and partly because I need faith and confidence as I go in there tomorrow. Herr Karlisch and Herr Psychalla are really coming along. Tomorrow we are going to give them an F discussion. They are so good I can’t believe it. I get so excited. I have prayed and prayed for them and I know the Lord also wants them in the church.
March 12, 1976
Today was a great day. I really learned something today that I guess was a little of a problem. I fasted until about 11:00 and I prayed to the Lord for help in all my efforts. Well for some reason yesterday was sort of a letdown which is what I needed. I have a problem sometimes of working so hard and wanting it so bad I forget really whose work it is and I start worrying about it. I take myself and everything too darn serious. Well
I think the Lord showed that to me today. I have just wanted everything to go so well so bad that I have been maybe worrying too much about it. Today I really let down and relaxed a little. It was great. It’s part of this idea of the 6th law by Monson. Take your calling serious but don’t take yourself too serious. Well I want things to happen so bad that I just lose myself in the work which is good – but then go farther and start worrying, stewing, etc. – which is bad. Anyway the Lord showed me that today. I realized that through his inspiration.
This morning in the shower we had a bad experience. We had just gotten into a G.Q. with a guy, standing there with nothing on, and a lady walked in and started talking as she cleaned up a little. I couldn’t believe it. I had my towel but Elder Johnson was right out in the middle of the floor. He had his too but was really too late. Not much he could do. Man I got out of there that was trouble. It was by Cur Bad – and we’re not going there again. I hold my body sacred and not every lady that works there is going to see it. This lady didn’t and none ever shall until I marry.
Well the big discussion that we waited all week for was tonight. We tried to give them an F discussion. About all we got through was F-1 and 4, 5, talking about truth and how we could find it. It was a tough discussion. They always have so many questions and it’s really hard to teach them. It went good but they have trouble immer noch on this one step of praying. I know that if they will just do it, the Lord will bless them. I read them some scriptures to help them understand the Spirit. It’s just hard for them. I want to help them so bad but I just realize that they are going to have to make their own effort and then the Lord will bless them. They’re good, they want to know and that’s the important things. They’ll make it.
March 13, 1976
We had a good day. Harold came over for Spaghetti at noon and we tried to teach him a discussion. He’s really a Bengal . I’ll really be happy if he can come along. We had a pretty good day.
Sunday, March 14, 1976
This morning I was really delighted. A Frau Gross came to church this morning. She is really a nice lady and the Mitgliders really enjoyed her being there. We are going to work with her – she’s good I think.
Well I’m tired tonight. I gave an Ansprache in church today. The subject matter was good. I talked on Faith. But my German was terrible. I was really bad. I hadn’t really prepared it like I should have and of course it didn’t go. When I give talks in German I need to say them a couple of times in German to iron out the rough spots and do the job. Tonight was a good “BAD” experience. I really took a dive I guess with the members, also my district members. I guess what hurts the most is with myself, knowing that I can do better and then just not putting the effort into it. I hope I get another chance with this Gemeinde before I leave.
As I ponder my situation I realize as usual how weak I really am. My German is not very good and my discussions are still not there. It just gets you down. I’m tired. I’m just tired of the whole hassle sometimes, but I know that’s when you have to keep plugging and asking the Lord for help. I need to really get going again in my studying. I need to get up like I used to and really get some things learned.
I pray to the Lord to help me. I am very weak and I need his light and knowledge to learn and keep this language and all. We need to look to him in all our goals and efforts. I do know more than ever.
March 15, 1976
Today we worked real hard. Put in about 11 hours. We tried to do a little member work but Sister Harduck wasn’t too anxious to see us and the others weren’t home. We did visit Folkerts for a while. She is a real nice lady, real weak in a lot of ways but still a very fine member. I would like to activate the whole family if it is possible. We are going to keep working on them. They’ll come. It’s the Lord’s way.
We had a fantastic F.A. this evening. It is really a joy to meet beautiful families. We met this Busenger family last week going door to door. It was a whole week before we could come back but we finally had the F.H.E. last night. It went beautifully. We had a good program, they enjoyed it. The kids thought it was great. We had a lot of fun and I think the parents could feel the importance of the whole situation. I am sure that this was the best F.H.E. I have ever taken part in. They’re a great family. I’m happy and very thankful that the Lord has led us to them. Now it’s our job to teach them and apply the things we’ve learned in the conversion progress. What a wonderful experience. I thank the Lord for the Busenger’s and pray with all my heart that we can now help them along to the road toward Baptism.
March 16, 1976
Today was a hard day. We just couldn’t get going and our time was not spent as wisely as it could have been. We taught Harold today. He couldn’t even think about it. He is only worried about finding a job. We are trying to help him. Thursday I am going to cut his hair. I want to help him. I think that we can if he will just humble himself and turn to the gospel. The Lords wants him. That I know. This is the Lord’s work and he works on the amount of effort we put into things. I know that to be a fact. I just want Harold to realize it and turn to the Savior Jesus Christ. I know it can happen. Lord bless us.
Wednesday March 17. 1976
Today was a good day. We took an ausflug all afternoon. We went kegeling and then later looking around the Haven, then we got a bite to eat before visiting the Theater. It was a bit of fun. The first break I have taken in a long long time. My District has a hard time having fun though. We had a blast kegeling but Elder Cline and Elder Johnson took it too serious and it wasn’t good for them. Oh, well we had a lot of fun. My legs are shot though, wow, it’s like doing 200 deep knee bends. They will be shot tomorrow.
We saw Konig Odyus at the Theater. It was good but they had a lot of Sigmund Freud psychology in it. In between scenes they had a weird scene that must have been his mind. It was weird. I can’t decide if I like it or not but I really wasn’t impressed by it and I think I’d have to say I didn’t, although the character, stage production, and all was real good.
It was a pretty good day. You need to take some time off sometimes and just forget about the work. I need that especially, sometimes. It was good.
March 18, 1976
This morning first thing I cut Harold’s hair. It was really long and we cut it so he could better find a job. I was really proud of the job myself. We also visited Sister Heinz and Brother Fehring today, both older members. I feel so sorry for Sister Herta Heinz. She has had so much grief in life. She was an illegitimate child, unloved, kicked out. The first of 16 and the only illegitimate (therefore kicked out). Married a real bummer, had a kid. He left her so she went to her in-laws. They weren’t up too much but took her son in. She left and got tossed to and fro looking for work. Finally got married to a decent guy. Couldn’t have any children. Adopted 2. Hans, her boy was a good kid but her daughter grew up bad. Finally stole all her furniture and left with some dude. Pretty tough life. I feel really sorry for her. The Lord will bless her.
March 19, 1976
Wow have I been sore. We kegeled Wednesday and my legs are shot. Yesterday it brought tears to my eyes to climb a set of stairs and coming back down was really tough. I need Mitzie to give them a good old rub down. They’re just stiff and sore.
We were supposed to leave at 3:00 today but didn’t make it until 4:00. I really got a lot done. I sent all my slides off with a tape telling a little about it home. They should like that. I also bought my watch. It is a cheap Timex. I should have gotten something real nice but for right now this one will do. It’s fine.
After we finally got out on the work we had a good evening. We had one discussion with a Herr Nierach. He’s just a young student but he read the book last time and even made some notes on it. I was really impressed. It’s the first time in a long time that I’ve had somebody read and really write some notes down. He is really unbelieving but I think it could come. I know with the Lord’s help everything can happen. We’ll go back and really help him. I really like him.
Tonight was “Let’s Meet and Talk.” My table really got into a good discussion about a lot of things. Kim played or led a game where she would ask questions and then everyone answered. There were some deep questions but because of the religious philosophies that I have I could answer every one of them. It really astounded some of those people. I really wish I could help them sometimes. The things we have to offer – If they could only see it.
March 20, 1976
We worked pretty good today. There wasn’t much happening so we just merrily worked there in our Gegend. We also asked some GQ’s there on Sustrand. It was pretty neat. We met a lot of people and made 3 or 4 appointments. It was a really productive day that way, because like I always say – “Meeting people – that’s the name of this game.”
Sunday, March 21, 1976
Today was a good day, we had to work most of the day because we have Zone Conference tomorrow and we need the hours to reach our goal. I blessed the Sacrament 5 times today. Both times in church and Sunday School and then also for Sister Heinz with my companion. The rest of the day was spent preparing for the Zone Conference. A good day.
March 22, 1976
ZONE CONFERENCE – BREMERHAVEN
Today was quite an experience for me. We traveled to Bremerhaven Wilhelmshaven Wesser River to Bremerhaven Bremerhaven Bremerhaven Leeds , Utah
March 22, 1976
ZONE CONFERENCE
The Conference itself was really great. The President talked about the desires of our hearts in connection with working with this Spirit. His talks are always so great. I just love to listen to him. He talked about working with the Spirit and being always in tune. He said that prayer plays a most important role. When we are going door-to-door he says we should be praying constantly to have the Spirit with us and to be led by the Spirit as to what to say, etc. He maintains that what we think about when we don’t have to think is what shows our desires and therefore if we are always pouring out to the Lord for help and asking to be led by the Spirit then this is the time when we really can achieve something. This is not only true in Missionary Work but in all the things we do or will do in life. If we are always asking for the Lord’s help, some might say we are living like Monks, very close to the Lord but not being able to enjoy life. President Schwendiman said that as we do this in our lives, striving always, praying always, and living always to be in tune with the Spirit that the Lord will bless us and we will be able to enjoy life better. Man is that he might have joy. Every wholesome thing on the earth was put here for man’s benefit. All the good, music, books, knowledge, that is wholesome and uplifting can be better enjoyed with the Spirit of God. It’s so wonderful and so true. Devery once told me and I believe it very much that we have to learn to live by the Spirit or with the Spirit here in this life because that’s how the Celestial Kingdom
ZONE CONFERENCE
President Schwendiman also gave us a little idea that relates to this and actually to all things. He says our successes and failures are largely determined by these things.
Thoughts: What we think about when we don’t have to think.
Also, the desires of our hearts. What we really want.
These may be very basic, very important.
Also pure thoughts (D&C 121: 45, 46)
Words: This is a concept that I have learned only since being on my Mission. The world was created by words and there is a real power in what we say. We need to use this power for good and really watch what we say even in jest.
Actions: Of course this is thing that proves us. We can talk and follow, obey, and act with exactness then that’s the battle.
It’s three simple things but the thoughts lead to words and then to actions, so if we are always in tune and watching and pushing ourselves in these three areas then we have the key to success.
I went into this Zone Conference fasting because I knew I needed the help of the Lord in talking over with the President a few things that I have overcome. We all struggle with this idea of personal worthiness but today I was true to myself and discussed again a few things with the President. It’s always so good to talk with him. We both knew how weak we as humans are and that’s why we need to always look up to Christ and realize our dependency on him. I am so thankful for the opportunity I have to repent and grow in the Gospel and I thank the Lord for his help in my efforts towards perfection. It was a beautiful growing experience and a beautiful day and Zone Conference for me. I love the Lord.
Today was a great day. We got back late last night from Zone Conference and we austausched. Elder Julander and I wanted to go to Hohen Kirchen a little dorf about 30 kilometers north of here. The other brethren have an investigator there that they teach every once in a while. Well it was actually too far away so this was going to be their last trip – so I wanted to see the world a little and decided to take it. So early this morning we were off. It was fantastic. All the German farmland and the dorfs up the countryside. It was really beautiful. I’m really happy I went.
It was quiet and peaceful there in the countryside. I could smell the good old barnyard so good. It was quite an experience. We hit all the old Churches in every town as we went. There were really some old churches. We got some great pictures of them. At Hohen Kirchen, that’s the town we had to go to, we got the key to the Church. About a foot long that key was. Inside we took all kinds of pictures. It was great.
When we got back at 3:00 Elder Julander and I ate lunch. We had made the trip. About 60 kilometers up and back plus all on steps and all in 6 hours. It was pretty good. We traded back at 4:00.
This evening was really great. We taught the Busenger Family a “C” discussion. They were really neat. They are such wonderful people. I want to be a tool in the Lord’s hands to bring them into the Gospel. They are really a wonderful family. I want to help them, help them so bad it hurts. They are going on vacation for a few weeks. We’ll have to see if we can send them a card. A great family. They’ll be great members someday.
Tonight we also visited Folkerts. Sister Folkert then told us she was going to leave her man (her husband). I couldn’t believe it. I feel so bad for them. We have been working with them for a long time now and they were making a lot of good progress. I really don’t know what to do. I couldn’t agree or disagree – I just told her to pray about it. It was a pretty bad del
March 24, 1976
Today we worked hard. It was a pretty tough day but we did have a couple of good discussions. It was just one of those not too much happening days. We worked hard and although it was a pretty tough day it was a good day.
Tonight we visited a familie by the name of Schopp. He is really a hard looking guy. They are very simple people that have to work hard for the things they have. They are not very Spiritually gifted but sometimes they can really feel the Spirit. Tonight for example, we talked for about an hour and then we bore a strong testimony and left. They were just struck by the Spirit. Most people like this can feel it and then they kick it right back out but they even had a hard time doing that. It was beautiful. I know they felt the Spirit.
March 25, 1976
Today a miracle was performed. We went looking for Harold a job. We got him all dressed up and took him with us and asked every firm and company on the Kanalweg and area. In Germany
We had several discussions this afternoon fall out but we did teach one beautiful discussion, and that was with Frau Brosseit. She had had the missionaries 30 years ago but her husband had no interest. Now he is dead and we showed her Suche. It was fantastic. As we bore testimony in the name of the Lord at the end she really felt it and was really touched. A great lady. Mal selen.
March 26, 1976
Today was a preparation day but because of our goal of 55 hours and the time we blew Monday in Zone Conference we worked all day. It was a good day. It rained this morning but after that it was a beautiful day. We met a Herr Klein this morning and he had already had the Missionaries before so we made an appointment and went by his house in the afternoon. We were there 3 hours eating waffles and coffee and all.
Today I am 11 months on my Mission
March 27, 1976
Today is Thomas Tromley’s birthday. I wonder where he is. He used to be one of my best friends. I hope he is doing well because I know he has had a hard life. I am so thankful that I am where I am now. Today was a great day. We have so many people that we visit and teach. I am just very happy to be a Missionary at this time. I thank the Lord daily for my very wonderful blessings and opportunities. I am really blessed. I just hope and pray I continue to be humble and realize my blessings. I need to be humbler than I am but I know my heart is full and very thankful.
March 28, 1976
Today was a good day. Elder Johnson had to give a talk so I worked on a couple of Cards for my Familie and also Mitzie. It was a real good day for getting a little work done.
March 29, 1976
What a neat day. Today I am twenty. It was a fantastic day really. It started off with a phone call. Yup! My whole family called me up. Grandpa and Grandma, Mom, Rich, Michelle, Marcia. I talked to all of them. It was so neat. I can’t really express the feelings I have towards my family. I love them all so dearly. I know that those people are the most important people in my life. It’s such a beautiful feeling to know I have them waiting for me and loving me like they do. It was so good to talk to them. My mom is the best Mother in the world. I owe everything I am to her and my highest desires are to hone her. Richard means so much to me also. He has truly been the best Father I could ever have. I hope and pray that he will be touched by the things I am doing and get active once again in the Church. I can’t wait to go home and spend some time with him in an effort to help him understand some of the beautiful concepts of the Gospel. I really love my parents and the wonderful example they have been to me. It’s so special. My two little sisters, Michelle and Marcia. I get tears in my eyes when I ponder about thinking on them. They mean so much to me I can’t express myself, suffice it to say that I look forward with much joy and happiness to spending many years together with them. Parley P. Pratt wrote a good thing about this; and its true the special relationships that we can enjoy is families can be the most beautiful things we can enjoy. I love my family. On this special day I thank the Lord that he sent me to the earth and given me 20 years already in which to show my faith and love for him. I love him, life, and my family.
March 30, 31; April 1
I’m going to sum these 3 days in one. This week has been pretty well shot with moving and cleaning and etc., etc. with our new apartment. The place is a real “Pit.” It was owned by a Turk before us and he lived with a Yugoslavian and all. It was a real dump. They rented it I should say, it is really owned by a guy named Ouede Walter. He is a real scrooge. Our apartment costs us just about as much as the other one and it’s a lot smaller. He is a good old guy but really worried about that money. We have washed and cleaned and got everything a little bit in order but it still has its problems.
I want to mention a Frau Schopp – well the Familie Schopp. They are so nice to us. We told them about our apartment and then they said we could have two single beds. And they even offered to haul them in their Volkswagen flatbed truck. Then we ran into trouble with moving so we asked if we could get her to make a trip from Rhein Street Peter Street
Everything is pretty well in order, I guess. We are all moved in now. We have worked hard to get settled in but the time has been well used and we are getting back on schedule now. Our new apartment has a Dusche – shower – so it will have a lot of advantages. It’s cost us a lot of money to get all the things we need. I feel good about it all but really want to get going on some good work now. The days are getting warmer and longer. The best summer of my life so far is ahead of me. I’m really excited. I guess I close the page on Rhein Street
April 2, 1976
Today was preparation day. We spent the day here getting things done. It was a big hassle with this 4 man food system and all but we decided to do it this way. One man buys and if it goes over 80 marks a week then he pays. That way we keep the bill down a lot. One companionship will cook a week while the other washes and then they switch the next week. It is a pretty good system except now I am going to have to learn to cook for 4. It will really save a lot of time. This week it’s been great. I wash up every other meal and study the rest of the time. This four man stuff is going to work out good.
Today I spent several hours studying the “I” discussion. We were supposed to give it to Karlisch and Pychalla but we had a little bad luck. We were working there in the gegend and Herr Karlisch drove up. He said he had to travel to Bremen
Today as I was preparing for the discussion I worked real hard on it and then I knelt down in prayer. As I prayed I felt really close and through the Spirit I learned something better than I have ever before. And that was namely service. Serving God. Why do I want to learn the discussion good, why work on the language, why do all these things to become a better Missionary? Well it struck me today pretty clearly in my prayer – “to better serve the Lord.” It seems we want to be good Missionaries but for the wrong reasons. I don’t think I had a problem (my reasons being false or something) but it really struck home the point to me.
Tonight as I prayed, after a lot of thinking and pondering and praying I set a goal to be an instrument in his hands and bring someone in this month.
April 3, 1976
Today I was up at 5:30 and had a good hour of study in before anyone even stirred. It feels so good. I love getting my “Ducks in a Row” and getting things done the way I like. It makes my whole day go better.
We left at 7:45 and visited the Schopp familie. We took along 20 brotchen and had breakfast with them. Then Mrs. Schopp brought the last schank to us. It was really great. They are a great family. Afterwards we washed the bus.
The rest of the day wasn’t real great. We got things in order for the Conference tomorrow. Harold will be going with us. He is going to have an experience tomorrow. It’s going to be a great experience.
Tonight we had a great happening. Last thing we visited Sister Mitzke. She told us that this young girl that she’s been working with is finally ready to talk with us. It’s all set for Tuesday night. It looks great. I can’t really believe it but I have great hopes and anticipation. It’s kind of funny but last night I set a goal and tonight this happens. I hope and pray with all my heart that I can be a humble, dedicated servant of the Lord and help the young girl see the light of the Gospel.
April 4, 1976
Today was General Conference all over the world! For the people in Germany they spend a lot of money to bring transmission live from America
This morning we got up in good time. After a pretty good study session we went and picked up Harold. We met the other brethren at the station and were soon on our way to Bremen
After finally finding a bench and sitting down and eating some sandwiches which we had brought we traveled by street bahn to the Church. We had a little while there before the meeting started. I thought Harold got pretty bored but he didn’t mind, I guess. I met all my Missionary pals and buds. Wow there are a lot of them. Every time I get together with a group of Missionaries I have so many friends and there are always so many stories to tell. It’s great. I love it. The great Elders of Israel.
The Conference was really great. I was a little upset most of the time though because of Harold. In the first one he had a little spat with the girl that was sitting behind him about her putting her feet on his chair. I couldn’t believe it but it upset them both. After that he couldn’t really sit still. It drove me up the wall. In the second Conference, the English broadcast he went for a walk so I tried not to worry about him and enjoy the Session, which I did pretty well.
The English was really beautiful. The talks were great but the important thing was to realize the reality of the Conference and hear it live. It’s a very special experience for me being so far away from home. It makes me so thankful for all my many wonderful blessings. I love this church, the gospel, and especially the Lord for blessing me the way he does. I also met Elder Howard again. A great Missionary and friend. 1 month ago we separated, now to meet him again was great.
April 5, 1976
Today Elder Johnson was banged up with his knee so I stayed home with him most of the day. It’s so funny. I had a lot of time but it seems like I didn’t get anything done. I have set myself a goal (again) to have my discussions good – mainly H & I now by the end of the month. It’s so hard. I realize so easily how weak I am – but I’m back on schedule to getting up and going after the study. It feels good. But I have a big goal – finally – to achieve.
We went to the doctor and also afterwards called the President because of Elder Johnson’s knee. It’s a little swollen and we don’t really know what is wrong with it. The Doctor wouldn’t do anything with it until he had the old Doctor’s report of what had been done last year in an operation on the same knee. Elder Johnson had to call home for that – Elder Wirthlin will probably bring it back over with him when he comes. Until then we are pretty well slowed down in the work.
Tonight we had our big discussion with Karlisch and Pychalla, but as we walked in and started they had already come to the decision that they didn’t want to hear anymore until they had some time to think about it. I immediately challenged them to baptism – to give them something to think about. They are still real good and especially Herr Pychalla has the good and right attitude. That he would let himself be baptized if he got the answer, and was ready and willing to live it. The trouble is they don’t realize what happens – that as soon as we don’t visit them the Devil steps in and starts to tempt them. I tried to get them to let us visit them but they want to work it out for themselves. I didn’t know what to do. The Spirit led me and I challenged them to baptism and repentance. Then we left them our testimonies and left. We’re supposed to go back in 3-4 weeks. I hope and pray that the Lord blesses them. I went over in a field afterwards and prayed. When I came back Frau Schopp was talking to Elder Johnson so we visited them. We had quite a Spiritual experience as we bore strong testimony and invited them to church. Sister Schopp at least felt it and was touched.
April 6, 1976
Today we stayed in for the first half. I studied really hard in Elder Johnson’s grammar book. Mom sent me some books a few days ago but she couldn’t find a “Cochran’s” for me. I really used my time good today. A little better anyway. We finally got out of the wohnung about 4:00. First we went to Herr Klein’s. He is a great man but has too many materialistic ideas. We had a good discussion and challenged him to study farther and he accepted. It was pretty good.
We also met with Sister Mitzke and Daymerr Zaum. She is really a good Mitgleid because she is the first one to have M/M. The first discussion with a member and non-member for a long time. In fact I don’t think I have ever had one except at Sister Knaetsche’s. It was tough. Sister Mitzke has only been in one year and she doesn’t know very much herself. It’s real hard to teach her these things but we’ll keep working on it.
Afterwards we visited the Schopp families. Sommers were supposed to be there but they didn’t show. Sister Schopp’s brother was there though – wow that was a real deal. He is 26 and had a 15 year old Fraulein – it was really weird. We tried to leave without realizing we hadn’t prayed but Sister Schopp reminded us so we prayed. It was neat. She’ll come I just know she can.
April 7, 1976
Today we met with Harold. We challenged him to baptism. Wow, he couldn’t understand what was going on and went a little negative. He can’t believe and we tried to do it in the light that we would set a date and work towards it, realizing that we had a lot to do. He didn’t want anything to do with it. He is really down on most things. This challenge brought everything to the surface. He doesn’t understand anything and then said he knew enough. It was a good experience, for us and for him. And now we can help him further but at least we have good perspectives.
WE also gave a F.A. to the Wolter’s familie. It went very well. We had a good evening – the kids enjoyed it and I think the familie really got a lot out of it. The Wolter’s are very find people and I’m ready now to move in and teach them the Gospel.
April 8, 1976
The life of a Missionary is really hard sometimes. I have really had some wonderful experiences on my Mission
We had a good day but I just feel we need to meet, teach, and baptize some people. I know the Lord wants us to if we can just get everything in order. I pray for his help and guidance in our work.
April 9, 1976
Another Friday. It was great. I really got some good letter writing done. I think I wrote 8 letters. That’s great for me. We are on to cook this week so it’s going to be great to be able to cook for four. We didn’t get much done and I really wanted to study more but I guess next week.
Tonight I had a great day on the doors. I was working real hard on my Aussprache and my approaches. I really had a blast. We met some great people. I really have a lot of friends, it’s great.
Tonight I was reading in Mormon, Chapter 9 about miracles, faith, his disciples and I decided to tighten up to start working harder and exercising more faith. I know the Lord wants to bless us if we only have the faith to do that. I need to become better in all areas and call on him to bless us and exercise my faith. It was a great day. I really felt great to be a Missionary. My language, discussions and all. It’s really coming good for me. I am eternally grateful to the Lord.
April 10, 1976
Today we tried an Austellung on the Dike. It really wasn’t very good because there are not that many people in the mornings when we tried it. It was a lot of fun though and as soon as we get going it will be a good little tool for afternoon contacting. It should be real good. I like Austellung and this one should prove good.
After lunch we were going along looking up referrals and I turned off and went down a side street to look at a great big ship that was parked in the Harbor. It was a big ship. It had a ladder lowered over the side – a ramp deal that you could get on with. I said to Elder Johnson, “Let’s go” and up we went. At the top it said trespassing verboden but my desire and curiosity pushed me on. I took my Missionary card out and introduced myself to some deck help – soon a Superintendent came out and we talked to him – told him who we were and all. I was pretty scared, we really had no business being there but we acted cool and I figured they could only kick us off anyway. Either our forwardness or curiosity or being American or something worked because he said he only had five minutes and would show us all he could in five minutes. So in we went. Well, he was a great guy because that 5 minutes lasted almost 2 hours. It was a great experience. We talked to the guy about the Church. He was an Engineer for the Company from Belgium Belgium
The ship’s name was Ore Prince, built in 1956 in Japan
Tonight we had a very special experience with Familie Schopp. The Sommers were there and we taught them a “C” discussion. It was great. We invited them to church, and they said they’d come. It was a special evening.
April 11, 1976
Today was Sunday. A very special Sunday. We had Sister Schopp, her 4 kids, Herr Sommers and his daughter in Church. The Gemeinde just about flipped out. They really enjoyed it. These are going to be great members. I need to get this attitude and really show my faith because I know that these people are children of God and that he wants them in his church. Too many times we lack the Faith ourselves to help these people into the church. I had a great day. We had a long district meeting afterwards and companion interview which shot the day. We visited Schopps again after an appointment we had. I really love this family and I hope to be a tool in the Lord’s hand to bring them into the Church. They loved church and want to come more. I am a very happy Missionary. I love this.
April 12, 1976
Today I worked with Elder Julander again. Our official monthly austausch. We had a great day. It was a long day with a lot of tracting and no discussions. We really had a good time though.
We talked about the Missionary work itself most of the day. He goes home in July so he has had really a lot of experience. A good Missionary. There are a lot of things about him though that I see in many Missionaries that have been out here over a year that I don’t like. It’s mainly that gleichgultig attitude that we all get on the doors and stuff. If we could consider everyday our last day here in the field we might get the right attitude. This is a very important work, a very urgent message that we carry. We forget the importance too often. We go door to door and don’t realize the opportunity those people are missing as they shut the door. To work with the Spirit is the key. I hope I can really keep the Spirit with me and be led to do the Lord’s work to help these people.
We had a great day. Elder Julander and I get along beautifully. We really understand each other good. We both are from small town High Schools – Richfield
We met a lot of good people and really had a good day. We visited a contact of his – a Frau Benkwitz. Wow, I couldn’t believe it. She is the funniest old witch I have ever seen. We laughed and laughed till tears came and our guts ached. It was really quite an experience. We talked in her mixture of German, Platt, and Polish dialects. It was the greatest. We want to take a tape recorder and tape another session. I really couldn’t believe it. It was fantastic.
We had a good day, Elder Julander and I did. His gegend is good but I love where I’m working it and really think that the success that we are seeing is due to our diligence and prayers. The work is going great right now. We need to bring these people in. It’s my prayer and goal to do just that. A tool for the Lord to bring people to his church.
April 13, 1976
Today was a very good day. We had a pretty fair day but this evening with Schroeder’s and Schopps it was beautiful. First we taught the Schroeder’s. It was a good discussion. They are a young couple, married, he’s working, so is she, just perfect. We gave them a whole “C” discussion. I really think they are great. I hope and pray that these truths will find a way into their hearts.
We had a very special experience with Schopp’s tonight. We went over for a visit and had a good talk. Then afterwards we started talking about eternal relationships. The Spirit was strong, so strong I could hardly control myself. It’s beautiful what the Spirit of the Lord can do. They were really feeling things as we talked about love, a man and wife for the eternities, family and true joy. I could see the deep emotional feelings of two children of God come forth. They are so worldly oriented that they have a hard time expressing themselves but tonight the Spirit of the Lord did it for them. As we left they were standing arm in arm. I walked out and the Spirit just overcame me. I have seen that family change so much and progress so much that I realize the power of the Gospel. I really love the Schopps. I really had a special testimony and witness of the changing and cleansing power of the Gospel through a direct experience with the Holy Ghost tonight with the Familie Schopp.
April 14, 1976
Today was a good day. We taught two Omas and also had the Austelling on the Deich. It wasn’t too successful but it worked out okay. It was a good day. We met some good people but it wasn’t anything special. I had a talk to give this week in Church and I’m getting a little worried about it. I want so bad to give a good talk and put over a good message for Easter Sunday.
April 15, 1976
It was one year ago today that I went through the temple for the first time. My escort was of course Grandfather Snow. What a wonderful man. I love him more than I can express and I hope and pray to be able to spend many long talks with him still.
I was austausched with Elder Cline today. We had a good day together. He is a great Elder but he lacks the desire or something to go get the job done. He just has a hard time getting going. We had a great day together and taught a good discussion this evening.
April 16, 1976
Today was preparation day. We spent most of the day just getting letters done and I wrote my talk – the outline anyway. It is Karfreitog which means nothing was open but we still went on the work. At 3:00 we visited a Frau Fromm. She should be a member but had a bad experience in connection with Frau Leibnitz. It was a bad situation. We visited the Schopp family again tonight. Before we left we prayed leaving a blessing in their home. We then asked Brother Schopp if he would come to church. He said he would try. That’s fantastic for him. I really believe he will. I’m so happy!! It’s great!!
April 17, 1976
Today I finally bought Marcia and Michelle their Hummel’s. Their birthday presents. It has taken me a long time to get everything in order but I realize how much it will mean to them. We had a little trouble today. Elder Julander received a Dear John. It was really sad. I really felt bad for him. Consequently we took the afternoon off and went bowling. Then we rode our bikes along the beach from Voslap to here. It was a pretty sad day for Elder Randal Julander.